a brief description of meeting the Lesser
and Greater Guardians in the new way,
and as well a description of the meaning of, and new manner of, the Second Pentecost in the Ethereal.
discussion of the Second Eucharist in the Ethereal, to go
with the Return of Christ in the Ethereal, read my Living Thinking
in Action, or the Way of the
Fool, or American
Anthroposophy, or The Art of God:
an actual theory of Everything.
Nothing stays the same, not even Spiritual Science and
Anthroposophy. Time passes, the spiritual itself
evolves as do human beings. Certain matters of
significance will have to be updated, and students of Rudolf
Steiner will find that they have to reconfigure their
paradigm if they are not to lose the connection with these
Americans these are very special facts of which to take
account. Our souls are not like the souls of either
the Center or the East, and it is well past time for us to
continue to assume that we need to imitate those selling
either enlightenment or initiation. The following
material is meant to be a guide for those with an American
Soul, and as well a Teaching for those who do not have an
American Soul. In the American is the leading edge of
the evolution of consciousness, and the most earthly and
natural expression of Anthroposophy.
of the difficulty is that while I was learning about
Steiner’s version of Anthroposophy, I assumed, like all
those I was meeting in the Society, that this knowledge was
nailed down and fixed. I took in then imagines of what
was to be expected and as I progressed naturally, in the
American Way, nothing happened as I had been led to expect.
I was saved in a kind of way, by Christ, who on
occasion touched me, and from those touches I eventually
learned that matters were to have a quite different flavor
than what Steiner had to teach to those without an American
Soul, and also mostly still living in the Intellectual Soul.
was not that Steiner was wrong, it was just that Reality is
highly differentiated, and the American Way had to take a
different course, with which his own comments on America
me now lay out some examples:
Double: Based on Steiners
descriptions of the double-complex in both the early Class
Lessons, and the first lectures collected under the title: The
Challenge of the Times, I
anticipated that my experience of the double-complex, and
its effects, would be visionary - i.e. supersensible images
consistent with what Steiner had described - we were, after
all, practicing science, which seems to seek a universal
Imagine my surprise when I discovered that my inner voice,
which I used when discursively thinking, could be captured
by aspects of the double-complex if I was not using that
voice myself, consciously. The double-complex lived
right next to my I, and from there was able to do its work,
which is by the way both positive and negative. For
details the reader of this is referred to my work: The Mystery of Evil in the Light of the
Sermon on the Mount.
At the same time it is important to understand that
the voice of conscience (the higher ego) and the guardian
angel also sound in us in a like fashion. Distinguishing
them is part of scientific self-observation. Each
(double complex, higher ego - conscience, and guardian
angel) has a characteristic quality that can be inwardly
Lesser Guardian of the Threshold:
As my experience of the luciferic/ahrimanic aspects of
the double-complex grew in its details, and as well in my
ability to somewhat master these
creatures, part of the relevant lessons came during a
mood of soul which we call: depression. In the state
of encouraged by the double depression (not always,
sometimes it is caused by brain defects, again see The Mystery of Evil) our inner voice becomes captured by these beings, which regale us with details and images of
how bad we are, how stupid, etc., such that it is very
significant that Tomberg’s characterization of the ahrimanic
aspect of these beings is as a prosecutor.
What to do to recover from this state is also
discussed in The Mystery of Evil.
co-working of these beings
creeps up on us, it is not overt, and we often don’t notice
the effects until they get acute. Besides the negative
(prosecutorial) thoughts, there is also a related paralysis
of the will. It was then in the Fall of 2009 that I
found myself experiencing a very profound apparent depression that had slowly advanced upon on me over the
course of a week.
one particular evening came the most intense activity in
this regard I had ever experienced, and I began to pace
around my room becoming more and more convinced of how
useless and ignorant and weak I was. I began to
intensely loath myself. I was not suicidal, by the
way. I just did not doubt for a moment that I had
failed at everything, and had not completed any spiritual
task in the right way, regardless of how hard I believed I
situation became intolerable (I paced for almost two hours),
and I finally woke up to the “depressive state of being”,
its song of my flaws and its related paralysis of my own will.
Exhausted I collapsed on my bed, and started to recite
out loud the Lord’s Prayer. The depression and
negativity then fled and I fell
into an emotionally drained sleep.
the morning the night work had embraced me and as I awoke I
realized that a profound Being/s had revealed itself to me,
and that it was of a hierarchy in which human failure and
weakness was intolerable. I was not really feeling
myself as much as feeling how this Being felt about human
beings, and our human weakness. In itself it believed
it had none, which is why it so intensely loathed me.
[Even today, my reflections on this experience grow,
for we do not always fully know the meaning of such
Moreover that is precisely why such related communties of
Beings were ordained to be part of the double-complex,
although generally quite restrained by certain rules.
In this case, my experience of this Being was an
Intuition - it drew me into itself and revealed itself to me
in all its remarkable power. It had given me by grace
insights into the workings of our lives that can be obtained
in no other way.
free of the burdens of its gift, and back to my ordinary
self-consciousness and thinking (in the following days), I
began to truly see how to forgive myself for all my
weakness, something this Being was incapable of doing.
It was as if there was a marriage being commenced,
between my lower and my higher ego, at which this Being/s
played an offertory. From learning to forgive myself
even of this profound loathing by another, I then became
able to forgive others in a much more real fashion than ever
Guardian of the Threshold:
This was a very strange event as it unfolded. It
wasn’t until later, when I was able to put it together with
a number of other experiences that I came to the conclusions
I now hold. Again, I was not prepared for this
experience by my readings of Steiner’s works. How
could he prepare me? Great aspects of the Americas and
Americans were invisible to him. It is only our
self-serving vain belief that he knows everything that leads
us to confusion. When we start to recognize that he
was also a human being, then we can move forward free of the
ideas we have built up from our too often unconscious
event happened about two months after the meeting with the
certain afternoon I became feverish. It was not a high
fever, but I went to bed early, and the fever continued for
about a total of 24 hours. The next afternoon I
started feeling better. After a day free of fever, I
became feverish once more. This was a bit more
intense, but when I took my temperature I was barely over
100 degrees. During the night, every time I woke up
and turned over, my scalp hurt everywhere. When I got
up the next morning and looked in the mirror my neck and
head were everywhere red, like a sun-burn. My scalp
hurt, the fever was still there a little, and I was red from
the neck up.
called an old friend in California, who is also an
anthroposophical doctor, and she had never heard of or seen
a fever produce a sun-like burn on the face and neck.
I went to the ER, and the doctor there ran some tests,
which gave no evidence of any kind of “bug”, but
nevertheless gave me some antibiotics and had me pick up
some anti-itch cream at the local pharmacy, with which to
treat the skin. He too had never seen a fever give an
effect like this.
anthroposophical doctor had said that it was a good sign the
effect of the fever was on the outer edges of my organism
(the skin), because fevers causing effects deeper in the
interior organs often led later to worse conditions.
the end of the third day the fever was gone and all that
remained was the “burn”. I treated it a little with
the anti-itch cream, but during the next few days a very
thin layer of skin flaked off in quite tiny pieces, and the
surface of the skin all over my head and neck, after a
period of being pink and new-like, healed and the itch
been consciously practicing intuitive thinking, after the
sense of The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, for over a decade. The only thought
that was making sense of the event was that a/the Sun Being
had touched me, so strongly that not only did I have a
fever, I also had, in early winter and indoors, a “sun”
burn, even though I had never left the room for several
days. This thought was coordinated with the
recollection of something Steiner had written in the 12th
Lecture of the John Gospel cycle, where he described that
when a student of The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity has achieved a catharsis (purification) of the
astral body, a higher being then takes the seed organs of
clairvoyance born into the astral body that have arisen from
this purification, and then impresses them on the ethereal
body to lay a basis for clairvoyance.
Experience has taught me to cultivate a bit of doubt in the
face of such intuitions. I don’t necessarily throw
them out, I just lay them off to the side and try to learn
more. I am particularly leery of thoughts that could
so easily be self-serving.
a time I began to notice that on going to sleep, the closer
I got to the “threshold” of sleep, the more my spontaneous
inner picturing (not directed at the sense world, but rather
at the inner world), had become alive with all kinds of
activity. I would see faces, and sometimes the faces
were looking back at me. I did not work with this
experience, although again my intuition was that this was
the world of the dead.
main path of knowledge previously had clearly been with
regard to thinking and thoughts, not to inner visioning.
So the practical question to me was whether there was
any change to the consequences my thinking activity.
This took a while to manifest, but in 2010 and
following, as mentioned previously, I created over 270
spontaneously given oral versions of my written works for
YouTube (this has so far resulted in over 200,000 visits to
individual videos, including over 1,000 subscribers - visits
quite international in scope) and wrote a book I had not
even previously imagined I was going to write: The
Art of God: an actual theory of Everything. As we say in America (at least): the proof is in the
Second Pentecost in the Ethereal:
Again, I was not expecting anything to happen. Yet, on
Pentecost 2011 I was sitting in my reading chair, had folded
my open book on my chest, closed my eyes and began to drift
into nap-like rest. Mostly when I do this I don’t
sleep, but I do very often think in the form we call
reverie. I am also aware that in this state I have a
more conscious awareness of both my ethereal body and my
astral body, although I do not study these - I just let
myself wander among their fields as it
Something unusual was present once I had shifted my
attention from the sense world to my inner world. This
will be difficult to describe, so bear with me please.
you right hand and place it centered over your right eye,
covering your face from the mid-forehead down to about half
way down your cheek. Make, in your imagination, the
upper pole of this hand-form wider, and the lower a bit
narrower. Also give it a kind of slight waist, in the
middle - a narrowing. The outer edges are basically
rounded - they are not straight lines. The upper
aspect of the form leans in a kind of way toward the left.
It is not in anyway precisely symmetrical.
in reality there is no outer edge, for the form is built up
of many dozens of smaller forms, which are basically
identical in general, but also conform themselves inside the
general overall shape.
of these smaller forms is like a two ended flame. The
end toward the outside is tipped to the left, and the end
toward the inside is tipped to the right. There is a
slightly wider middle, which is of a somewhat darker color
like the nucleus of a cell, and the outer flames (in both
directions) are lighter. The colors did not seem very
important, as if the shape was everything, but blue and
white seemed dominant.
of these two-ended flames were nested next to each other,
kind of like when people sleeping together “spoon”.
They nested in such a way as if from the center of the
form ran a line-like ordering impulse, such that these
“spooning” flames made a form and structure that circled
around what was essentially the larger oblong form with a
kind of waist, with the upper pole wider and the lower pole
relatively narrower than the upper pole. Each flame
then was of a slightly different length and width so that
their nested spooning filled out the whole form, without any
gaps, except at the outer “edges”. The total organism
pulsed in a kind of way - that is, it was not static but in
of the day, whenever I shut my eyes and let my attention
wander in the right way, the two-ended multi-flame form was
there, spacially occupying most of the right side of my
“face” as that is recognized inwardly as a felt aspect of my
head region when our eyes are shut.
conclusions arrived at over time:
head region was being reconfigured, such that the interface between my individual spirit and my physical
nervous system (in the region of the head) was altered.
The interface is the crucial aspect, and whether one
wants to speak of the physical body, the ethereal body or
the astral body (or all three), the change was being done by an outside source. I
wasn’t doing it, nor was I resisting it. On the
contrary, I surrendered to it.
Subsequently in speaking to others (I was giving some
courses in my home that Spring and early Summer), I noticed
a change in the sense that all that I had to do, after first
asking a few questions to orient myself to my listeners, was
begin to speak. I did not need a goal, and my first
utterance was mine to choose. The difference was that
I could, with full confidence, let myself go into the stream
of thought being unfolded and trust that it would lead me in
the right way to exactly what my listeners could best
benefit from hearing from me.
seldom paused, or lost the train of thought. I spoke
with ease, often creating new imagines I’d never thought of
before. Nor was I unconscious in any way, or
channeling. I was actually more awake and more
artistically free. This same effect began to appear in
my writing as well.
have since studied this phenomena in other ways. In
certain sense I became more aware that America was a kind of
micro-Babylon, such that even though we all used the same
language (English), our individual and group understandings
of the world were often radically different. I found
that if I needed to talk to someone concerning spiritual
matters, with a few leading questions I could understand
their paradigm’s language, and speak to it.
Further, there was no point of view I need “sell”. My
task was to be more socratic,
although in a very modern way. I was to bring out of
their already existing point of view what could in that
moment be born. I was to wash the feet of their way of
seeing/thinking/beholding the world, not to induce them to
believe in my paradigm.