a brief description of
meeting the Lesser and Greater Guardians in the new way,
and as well a description of the meaning of, and new manner of,
the Second Pentecost in the Ethereal.
For a discussion of the Second Eucharist in the Ethereal,
to go with the Return of Christ in the Ethereal, read my Living Thinking in Action, or the Way of the Fool, or American Anthroposophy, or The Art of God: an actual
theory of Everything.
Nothing stays the same, not even Spiritual Science and
Anthroposophy. Time passes, the spiritual itself evolves as do
human beings. Certain matters of significance will have to be
updated, and students of Rudolf Steiner will find that they have to
reconfigure their paradigm if they are not to lose the connection with
these natural changes.
For Americans these are very special facts of which to
take account. Our souls are not like the souls of either the
Center or the East, and it is well past time for us to continue to
assume that we need to imitate those selling either enlightenment or
initiation. The following material is meant to be a guide for
those with an American Soul, and as well a Teaching for those who do
not have an American Soul. In the American is the leading edge of
the evolution of consciousness, and the most earthly and natural
expression of Anthroposophy.
Part of the difficulty is that while I was learning
about Steiner’s version of Anthroposophy, I assumed, like all those I
was meeting in the Society, that this knowledge was nailed down and
fixed. I took in then imagines of what was to be expected and as
I progressed naturally, in the American Way, nothing happened as I had
been led to expect. I was saved in a kind of way, by Christ, who
on occasion touched me, and from those touches I eventually learned
that matters were to have a quite different flavor than what Steiner
had to teach to those without an American Soul, and also mostly still
living in the Intellectual Soul.
It was not that Steiner was wrong, it was just that
Reality is highly differentiated, and the American Way had to take a
different course, with which his own comments on America agree.
Let me now lay out some examples:
The Double: Based on Steiners descriptions of the double-complex in
both the early Class Lessons, and the first lectures collected under
the title: The Challenge of the Times, I
anticipated that my experience of the double-complex, and its effects,
would be visionary - i.e. supersensible images consistent with what
Steiner had described - we were, after all, practicing science, which
seems to seek a universal knowledge.
Imagine my surprise when I discovered that my inner
voice, which I used when discursively thinking, could be captured by
aspects of the double-complex if I was not using that voice myself,
consciously. The double-complex lived right next to my I, and
from there was able to do its work, which is by the way both positive
and negative. For details the reader of this is referred to my
Mystery of Evil in the Light of the Sermon on the Mount. At the same time it is important to understand
that the voice of conscience (the higher ego) and the guardian angel
also sound in us in a like fashion. Distinguishing them is
part of scientific self-observation. Each (double complex, higher
ego - conscience, and guardian angel) has a characteristic quality that
can be inwardly noticed.
Guardian of the Threshold: As my
experience of the luciferic/ahrimanic aspects of the double-complex
grew in its details, and as well in my ability to somewhat master these creatures, part of the relevant
lessons came during a mood of soul which we call: depression. In
the state of encouraged by the double depression (not always, sometimes
it is caused by brain defects, again see The Mystery of Evil) our inner voice becomes captured by these beings, which regale us with details and images of how bad we
are, how stupid, etc., such that it is very significant that Tomberg’s
characterization of the ahrimanic aspect of these beings is as a prosecutor. What to do to
recover from this state is also discussed in The Mystery of Evil.
The co-working of these beings creeps up on us, it is not overt, and we often don’t
notice the effects until they get acute. Besides the negative
(prosecutorial) thoughts, there is also a related paralysis of the
will. It was then in the Fall of 2009 that I found myself
experiencing a very profound apparent depression that had slowly advanced upon on me over the course of a
On one particular evening came the most intense activity
in this regard I had ever experienced, and I began to pace around my
room becoming more and more convinced of how useless and ignorant and
weak I was. I began to intensely loath myself. I was not
suicidal, by the way. I just did not doubt for a moment that I
had failed at everything, and had not completed any spiritual task in
the right way, regardless of how hard I believed I had tried.
The situation became intolerable (I paced for almost two
hours), and I finally woke up to the “depressive state of being”, its
song of my flaws and its related paralysis of my own will. Exhausted I collapsed on my bed, and started
to recite out loud the Lord’s Prayer. The depression and negativity then fled and I fell into an emotionally drained sleep.
In the morning the night work had embraced me and as I
awoke I realized that a profound Being/s had revealed itself to me, and
that it was of a hierarchy in which human failure and weakness was
intolerable. I was not really feeling myself as much as feeling
how this Being felt about human beings, and our human weakness.
In itself it believed it had none, which is why it so intensely
loathed me. [Even today, my reflections on this experience grow,
for we do not always fully know the meaning of such experiences
Moreover that is precisely why such related communties
of Beings were ordained to be part of the double-complex,
although generally quite restrained by certain rules. In this
case, my experience of this Being was an Intuition - it drew me into
itself and revealed itself to me in all its remarkable power. It
had given me by grace insights into the workings of our lives that can
be obtained in no other way.
Once free of the burdens of its gift, and back to my
ordinary self-consciousness and thinking (in the following days), I
began to truly see how to forgive myself for all my weakness, something
this Being was incapable of doing. It was as if there was a
marriage being commenced, between my lower and my higher ego, at which
this Being/s played an offertory. From learning to forgive myself
even of this profound loathing by another, I then became able to
forgive others in a much more real fashion than ever before.
Greater Guardian of the Threshold: This
was a very strange event as it unfolded. It wasn’t until later,
when I was able to put it together with a number of other experiences
that I came to the conclusions I now hold. Again, I was not
prepared for this experience by my readings of Steiner’s works.
How could he prepare me? Great aspects of the Americas and
Americans were invisible to him. It is only our self-serving vain
belief that he knows everything that leads us to confusion. When
we start to recognize that he was also a human being, then we can move
forward free of the ideas we have built up from our too often
This event happened about two months after the meeting
with the Lessor Guardian.
On a certain afternoon I became feverish. It was
not a high fever, but I went to bed early, and the fever continued for
about a total of 24 hours. The next afternoon I started feeling
better. After a day free of fever, I became feverish once more.
This was a bit more intense, but when I took my temperature I was
barely over 100 degrees. During the night, every time I woke up
and turned over, my scalp hurt everywhere. When I got up the next
morning and looked in the mirror my neck and head were everywhere red,
like a sun-burn. My scalp hurt, the fever was still there a
little, and I was red from the neck up.
I called an old friend in California, who is also an
anthroposophical doctor, and she had never heard of or seen a fever
produce a sun-like burn on the face and neck. I went to the ER,
and the doctor there ran some tests, which gave no evidence of any kind
of “bug”, but nevertheless gave me some antibiotics and had me pick up
some anti-itch cream at the local pharmacy, with which to treat the
skin. He too had never seen a fever give an effect like this.
The anthroposophical doctor had said that it was a good
sign the effect of the fever was on the outer edges of my organism (the
skin), because fevers causing effects deeper in the interior organs
often led later to worse conditions.
By the end of the third day the fever was gone and all
that remained was the “burn”. I treated it a little with the
anti-itch cream, but during the next few days a very thin layer of skin
flaked off in quite tiny pieces, and the surface of the skin all over
my head and neck, after a period of being pink and new-like, healed and
the itch disappeared.
I had been consciously practicing intuitive thinking,
after the sense of The
Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, for over a
decade. The only thought that was making sense of the event was
that a/the Sun Being had touched me, so strongly that not only did I
have a fever, I also had, in early winter and indoors, a “sun” burn,
even though I had never left the room for several days. This
thought was coordinated with the recollection of something Steiner had
written in the 12th Lecture of the John Gospel cycle, where he
described that when a student of The Philosophy of Spiritual
Activity has achieved a catharsis
(purification) of the astral body, a higher being then takes the seed
organs of clairvoyance born into the astral body that have arisen from
this purification, and then impresses them on the ethereal body to lay
a basis for clairvoyance.
Experience has taught me to cultivate a bit of doubt in
the face of such intuitions. I don’t necessarily throw them out,
I just lay them off to the side and try to learn more. I am
particularly leery of thoughts that could so easily be self-serving.
After a time I began to notice that on going to sleep,
the closer I got to the “threshold” of sleep, the more my spontaneous
inner picturing (not directed at the sense world, but rather at the
inner world), had become alive with all kinds of activity. I
would see faces, and sometimes the faces were looking back at me.
I did not work with this experience, although again my intuition
was that this was the world of the dead.
My main path of knowledge previously had clearly been
with regard to thinking and thoughts, not to inner visioning. So
the practical question to me was whether there was any change to the
consequences my thinking activity. This took a while to manifest,
but in 2010 and following, as mentioned previously, I created over 270
spontaneously given oral versions of my written works for YouTube (this
has so far resulted in over 200,000 visits to individual videos,
including over 1,000 subscribers - visits quite international in scope)
and wrote a book I had not even previously imagined I was going to
write: The Art of God: an actual theory of Everything. As we say in America (at least): the proof is in the pudding.
Pentecost in the Ethereal: Again, I was not
expecting anything to happen. Yet, on Pentecost 2011 I was sitting in
my reading chair, had folded my open book on my chest, closed my eyes
and began to drift into nap-like rest. Mostly when I do this I
don’t sleep, but I do very often think in the form we call reverie.
I am also aware that in this state I have a more conscious
awareness of both my ethereal body and my astral body, although I do
not study these - I just let myself wander among their fields as it were.
Something unusual was present once I had shifted my
attention from the sense world to my inner world. This will be
difficult to describe, so bear with me please.
Take you right hand and place it centered over your
right eye, covering your face from the mid-forehead down to about half
way down your cheek. Make, in your imagination, the upper pole of
this hand-form wider, and the lower a bit narrower. Also give it
a kind of slight waist, in the middle - a narrowing. The outer
edges are basically rounded - they are not straight lines. The
upper aspect of the form leans in a kind of way toward the left.
It is not in anyway precisely symmetrical.
Now in reality there is no outer edge, for the form is
built up of many dozens of smaller forms, which are basically identical
in general, but also conform themselves inside the general overall
Each of these smaller forms is like a two ended flame.
The end toward the outside is tipped to the left, and the end
toward the inside is tipped to the right. There is a slightly
wider middle, which is of a somewhat darker color like the nucleus of a
cell, and the outer flames (in both directions) are lighter. The
colors did not seem very important, as if the shape was everything, but
blue and white seemed dominant.
All of these two-ended flames were nested next to each
other, kind of like when people sleeping together “spoon”. They
nested in such a way as if from the center of the form ran a line-like
ordering impulse, such that these “spooning” flames made a form and
structure that circled around what was essentially the larger oblong
form with a kind of waist, with the upper pole wider and the lower pole
relatively narrower than the upper pole. Each flame then was of a
slightly different length and width so that their nested spooning
filled out the whole form, without any gaps, except at the outer
“edges”. The total organism pulsed in a kind of way - that is, it
was not static but in movement.
Most of the day, whenever I shut my eyes and let my
attention wander in the right way, the two-ended multi-flame form was
there, spacially occupying most of the right side of my “face” as that
is recognized inwardly as a felt aspect of my head region when our eyes
Some conclusions arrived at over time:
My head region was being reconfigured, such that the interface between my individual spirit and my physical nervous
system (in the region of the head) was altered. The interface is
the crucial aspect, and whether one wants to speak of the physical
body, the ethereal body or the astral body (or all three), the change was being done by an outside source. I wasn’t
doing it, nor was I resisting it. On the contrary, I surrendered
Subsequently in speaking to others (I was giving some
courses in my home that Spring and early Summer), I noticed a change in
the sense that all that I had to do, after first asking a few questions
to orient myself to my listeners, was begin to speak. I did not
need a goal, and my first utterance was mine to choose. The
difference was that I could, with full confidence, let myself go into
the stream of thought being unfolded and trust that it would lead me in
the right way to exactly what my listeners could best benefit from
hearing from me.
I seldom paused, or lost the train of thought. I
spoke with ease, often creating new imagines I’d never thought of
before. Nor was I unconscious in any way, or channeling. I
was actually more awake and more artistically free. This same
effect began to appear in my writing as well.
I have since studied this phenomena in other ways.
In certain sense I became more aware that America was a kind of
micro-Babylon, such that even though we all used the same language
(English), our individual and group understandings of the world were
often radically different. I found that if I needed to talk to
someone concerning spiritual matters, with a few leading questions I
could understand their paradigm’s language, and speak to it.
Further, there was no point of view I need “sell”.
My task was to be more socratic, although in a very
modern way. I was to bring out of their already existing point of
view what could in that moment be born. I was to wash the feet of
their way of seeing/thinking/beholding the world, not to induce them to
believe in my paradigm.